Paranoid Eyes

This is about people pretending they do not care, but really they care more than anything. A poem about being honest with yourself and reality. 

My apathy: unconvincing

At the best of times,

The realms of care, I delve beyond

And focus my eyes on elation

But:

I forget the most prized item;

Reality is easy to leave behind,

The clarity being repulsive, almost like

The truth is nauseating. So:

My spotlight is on the shadows;

Shadows of indifference,

And shadows of dispassion 

Such insensitivity nourishes the brain,

But leaves the heart deprived

This bold exterior just an imaginary

Projection

My soft interior, conspicuous

Within my  paranoid eyes.